Every time I go to sleep for the night, I keep praying for that breakthrough the next morning. That morning when everything feels great. The hope is there but the reality is not yet. I’ve done my calculating backwards and the return to work date is February 1, today is January 5; that’s just less than four weeks away. I know I’ve come a long way but it sure seems like I’ve got a long way to go on this feeling like working thing in just a few weeks. I don’t know whether this is pressure from insurance or whether the Doctors and nurses have enough experience that I really will experience my breakthrough (bedtime prayer or not) because that’s just the way the body works (miracle of the inward parts).
Psalm 139:13-16 (NKJV)
For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.
Regardless, even though I say I’m getting better, everybody hears it in my voice, sees it in my gait, I’m ready to feel it in my bones! Waiting on my sweet Jesus!
Did it sound like I was a little anxious, particularly during the calculating part? Maybe a little; forgive me Lord, I’ll just hang my hat on this one for the day:
Philippians 4:6-7 (NKJV)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.